Am I wasting my life away?

The following is a poem I wrote about a woman's decision to leave her husband, which she later regrets. I wrote the poem because the first two lines came into my head and I couldn't get them out of it. It has nothing to do with Korean.

Brief Infatuations

Do you sometimes fake orgasm?
Do you sometimes use sarcasm?
Do you sometimes come home late
And deny it was a date?

Do you sometimes look at him
And wish he were more like them?
Do you sometimes go to bed
And imagine he were dead?

Now you want to let him know
That it’s time for you to go.
Yes, he will most likely cry,
And ask you to tell him why.

Say you’re bored and want to live
While you’ve still got love to give
He won't know that you have lied,
And had others on the side.

Years later you’re still alone.
He found new love and a home.
Now you’re sitting wonder’n why
You ever left him for that guy.

Is life now trying to say
It's your fault you ran away?
Have you already missed your chance
In this world to find romance.

by Gerry Bevers